March 10, 2013
Hey everyone!!! It’s been so long since I blogged. However, we have had some problems with the website…so now I can communicate with everyone again…YAY!! I love to talk, especially if I have someone who will listen…and there’s no greater topic that the Love of my Father.
So much has happened over the past few months. We have begun planning our first mission trip to Village of Hope in Guatemala in June. Noah’s Legacy is so excited to be going where God has been leading us to go. We began in November with three people going on the trip, but as soon as others got word of the wonderful things that were taking place at Village of Hope and Noah’s Legacy, we ended that week with 20 people!!! That’s 17 more people who will be spreading God’s love to special needs orphans and caring for those that need to know God loves them. God is good! We know that this is only the beginning for the relationship between Noah’s Legacy and Village of Hope. Can’t wait to go and share everything that God has done for us here.
Each day that goes by I miss Noah even more…it never gets easy. However, each day that goes by God seems to enlighten us a little more regarding His plan for our family. We know His plan is so much more than ours could ever dream of being. I pray that God’s love lathers you all as thick and sweet as honey, and that you allow Him to work in your lives applying His plan and not your own…
MUCH LOVE AND MANY BLESSINGS…..
November 14, 2012
Sorry it has been so long since I have written anything on the blog. I’ll try to do better! This weekend has been bittersweet. We had a mini-vacation with some wonderful friends of ours. We had such a good time watching Daylee enjoy herself but seemed to find Noah in all we did. Sometimes that is a good thing…because I miss him so much I want to constantly be reminded of him. Sometimes, however, it seems like nothing I can do removes the empty feeling that he isn’t begging to go see the Bumblebee car for the fifteenth time. Or, how excited he would have been to see the enormous Optimus Prime transformer standing on the strip. Arcades and popcorn stores become heart wrenching to pass and you try to turn your head and look the other way just to get as much relief as possible so that everyone with you don’t see you break down, only to find another popcorn store on the other side. I want to get so excited to see Daylee laughing and having so much fun, but the pain gets overwhelming that I find myself internally beggin God for relief that will get me through until I can be alone. And whether you “believe” or not, I find my relief in knowing I have a Father who listens to every thought I have and jumps to my rescue at THAT very moment. My Savior is going to get me through this…I have no doubts. And knowing that I am putting my faith in the Maker of the wind….that’s all I need to know!
September 16, 2012
July 27, 2012
If I had known what I know today, what would I have changed? Would I have held on tighter? Loved you more? Laughed harder at your funny stories and silly faces? Would I have told you “I Love You” more? Those are questions that fill my scattered mind as I try to carefully but clearly recall every curve of your face, every glimmer in your eyes, and the sweet sound of “Mommy, I love you” that I hold on to so that my mind doesn’t forget the tone of your voice. It’s not possible to love you more or miss you less as the days turn to weeks, weeks to months, and soon…months to years.
June 25, 2012
Happy Birthday, Noah!
June 17, 2012
“For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, declares the Lord. For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts.” ~Isaiah 55:8-9~ Today, I’ve really missed Noah. Probably more than I have in a while. I have that homesick feeling you get when you feel outta place and want to be in the place where you belong, with the people you belong with. My heart doesn’t beat for this world anymore. It doesn’t find comfort in the things that normally would provide comfort here anymore. My soul has found comfort in a place far richer in beauty with peace so perfect and so real….without the aching, sorrow, and hate that comes with this world that we have to endure; BUT it’s only temporary! You’d better bet your bottom dollar…THIS GIRL IS READY TO FLY!!!!!!!!!and I don’t want to leave anyone behind!
Noah’s birthday is next week. He would be 9. June 25th was one of the greatest moments in my love. Pray for peace and comfort on this day…MUCH love!
(May 21, 2012
Having to learn the hard way that anger is an emotion that God understands just as much as any. But through the plethora of emotions I’ve felt over the past eight months I’ve learned that when the heartbreak, anger, confusion, and grief become consuming, that’s when God’s Love and Mercy becomes greater than the pain.
We were contacted today about an orphanage in Guatamala for special needs children. I feel very strong about this orphanage and special needs children have such a huge place in my heart. Noah would be well pleased with supporting this orphanage, and even more, I believe God is leading us in this direction with Noah’s Legacy. We are only in the beginning stages and will need to know quite a bit more before beginning this process…but we are so ready to get moving FULL FORCE with this ministry! Many thanks to all…love and prayers. ~Leann
May 10, 2012
It’s been quite a while since I last blogged. God has revealed himself in so many ways over the last couple of months. We have been seeking God’s direction for our family and what we should be doing. We know He has given us so much to say and has provided opportunities to say it. Last week, I spent two days at the INSPIRE Worship Conference in Brentwood, TN. WOW! Such a blessing to be apart of such anointing. Through the conference, God confirmed in me what He has called me to do. It was an exciting, yet scary, time in my life knowing where God is leading my family. God has taken the last nine years of my life, where my faith has been challenged, and used that to prepare my family for what’s to come. Once again, this is going to be an exciting, but scary, journey for us…completely out of our comfort zone….no more being stagnant! Please pray that we seek God’s guidance in every area of our lives…and that this ministry becomes what God created it to be! MUCH LOVE ~ Leann ~
But may the God of all gace, who called us to His eternal glory by Christ Jesus, after you have suffered a while, perfect, establish, strengthen, and settle you. To Him be the glory and the dominion forever and ever. Amen. 1 Peter 5:10-11
April 02, 2012
Realizing everyday just how blessed I am even beyond our tragedy. I see God in so many things, and in turn, brings me a peace that cannot be explained with words. Noah’s conversations at night before going to sleep were always about God, Jesus, or Heaven…always. Most questions I didn’t have an answer for, so I’d say “I don’t know baby. That’s something we’ll have to ask Him when we get there.” As I’m sure he had one longgggg conversation with Jesus about it all. Such a curious mind….without any curiosities now! My baby knows the secrets of the Universe. As much as I miss him (some days it’s hard to breath), the Holy Spirit gives me comfort knowing Noah is safe, and I’ll be HOME soon, too. Some days, I can only smile because of that promise!!!!
March 25, 2012
Today has been bittersweet. Started off with a wonderful, spirit-filled service at church. Then, the prettier the day got, the more I missed Noah…and more…and more…until I was broken down from the continuous thoughts that I will never be able to spend another spring or summer day like today with him again in this life…which could be YEARS. It has been such an overwhelming emptiness today. Oh, how I’ve needed God’s comfort and presence today. As much as I love Brad and Daylee, honestly, today I could have said I hate my life…but I’m still trusting a Savior who can heal a broken heart when it doesn’t seem possible! And it’s THAT love and comfort than gets me through each day.
Today, a couple that I sing with at church sang a song with me that has been on my mind for the past couple weeks…”Never Been This Homesick Before”. Oh, how well it expresses my feelings. I am so ready to go HOME. I know there’s a Creator waiting for as many of His children to accept His call before He comes for us…but selfishly I am ready and waiting for it NOW. However, because God sees purpose in me still being here, that means that He has a plan that I still must carry out to make sure that as many can will hear the Gospel of Christ and truly understand the love of my Father.
We have been through so much over the past 9 years…especially the past 6 months, God has a reason for it all…and just like with every personal and physical issue our family has faced, we will once again soar like Eagles because of God’s unsurpassing strength. I have to learn to BE STILL and know He is God. In His time, He will reveal His beautiful plan for our family’s ministry, one that Noah begun here, and with the guidance God, we will complete it…Now and tomorrow, we are ready to say “I’ll go!”
March 20, 2012
Not understanding why something happens has always been a huge confusion for me. Before my husband was my husband, he was also my college math tutor. Such a genius at anything involving numbers…my husband that is, definitely not me. He would tell me the steps to take in a formula to get the answer, and my response was always “WHY?”. He would say, “it doesn’t matter why, that’s just the way you do it.” That was so not good enough for my brain! I needed an explanation. There had to be reason why you would use certain steps to get the answer, but according to Mr. Mathwiz that wasn’t always so in math. Math sometimes just is…and there’s no explanation for it. Relating this to life, or even more specific, to my life, and I see that math and life have something very much in common…sometimes ‘It just is.’ However, the difference in math and life is that with math there’s not a reason…in life there is, you just may not know the reason immediately or ever in this lifetime. This has been such a huge struggle for me lately.
After Noah’s accident in September, I felt I needed a reason why this was happening to us. We did the best we could do. We took very good care of our children. We taught them about Jesus Christ and the sacrifice that gave us eternal life. Really, God? You have chosen to take the little boy that was apart of this type of family…the one who did more for you than any other person I know. I mean, God, Noah shared your love with people that most of us wouldn’t lower ourselves to speak to and there he was rubbing shoulders with these people, hugging them, and telling him “I love you”. I don’t think anger ever stirred inside me…there were times that I felt it could have if I had let it, but I refused to be angry with God. But, to be honest, I definitely spent hours questioning God’s purpose and what He was doing in this situation.
I now know that I may never know God’s reason for this tragedy. This may be something that I have to wait on the answer for…but unlike with math, I am determined to be satisfied with just knowing that God has control of my life, Noah is being taken care of more than I ever could, and most of all, God NEVER allows us to go through this kind of pain without just cause. God is a just God and sometimes….there is not answer to the ‘why’ questions in this life…but one day I will know it all.
March 19, 2012
Had a full day! I have so much to say and almost missed blogging on my first day. So much to say…but will continue tomorrow!